10 Bulls (The Search for Self)

I first came across this allegory in 2005. It spoke volumes to me, even as a novice to spiritual concepts. I hope you too will find some help in it.


in Zen Flesh, Zen Bones: A Collection of Zen and Pre-Zen Writings, compiled by Paul Reps
(Rutland, Vermont, and Tokyo: Charles E. Tuttle Company, 1957), pp. 163-186. (Harmondsworth: Penguin, 1971, updated 1997), pp. 133-147. One of the three series of woodblock prints shown were created by 德力富吉郎 Tokuriki Tomikichirō (1902-2000)

1. The Search for the Bull

In the pasture of this world, I endlessly push aside the tall grasses in search of the Bull.
Following unnamed rivers, lost upon the interpenetrating paths of distant mountains,
My strength failing and my vitality exhausted,
I cannot find the Bull.
I only hear the locusts chirring through the forest at night.

(The bull has never been lost. What need is there is search? Only because of separation from my true nature, I fail to find him. In the confusion of the senses I lose even his tracks. Far from home, I see many crossroads, but which way is the right one I know not. Greed and fear, good and bad, entangle me.)

2. Discovering the Footprints

Along the riverbank under the trees, I discover footprints!
Even under the fragrant grass I see his prints.
Deep in remote mountains they are found.
These traces no more can be hidden than one’s own nose, looking heavenward.

(Understanding the teaching, I see the footprints of the Bull. then I learn that, just as many utensils are made from one metal, so too are myriad entities made of the fabric of self. Unless I discriminate, how will I perceive the true from the untrue? Not yet having entered the gate, nevertheless I have discerned the path.)


3. Perceiving the Bull

I hear the song of the nightingale.
The sun is warm, the wind is mild, willows are green along the shore,
Here no Bull can hide!
What artist can draw that massive head,
those majestic horns?

(When one hears the voice, one can sense its source. As soon as the six senses merge, the gate is entered. Wherever one enters one sees the head of the Bull! this unity is like salt in water, like color in dyestuff. The slightest thing is not apart from self.)


4. Catching the Bull

I seize him with a terrific struggle.
His great will and power are inexhaustible.
He charges to the high plateau far above the cloud mists,
Or in an impenetrable ravine he stands.

(He dwelt in the forest a long time, but I caught him today! Infatuation for scenery interferes with this direction. Longing for sweeter grass, he wanders away. His mind still is stubborn and unbridled. If I wish him to submit, I must raise my whip.)



5. Taming the Bull

The whip and rope are necessary,
Else he might stray off down some dusty road.
Being well trained, he comes naturally gentle.
Then, unfettered, he obeys his master.

(When one thought arises, another thought follows. When the first thought springs from enlightenment, all subsequent thoughts are true. Through delusion, one makes everything untrue. Delusion is not caused by objectivity; it is the result of subjectivity. Hold the nose-ring tight and do not allow even a doubt.)



6. Riding the Bull Home

Mounting the Bull, slowly i return homeward.
The voice of my flute intones through the evening.
Measuring the hand-beats the pulsating harmony, I direct the endless rhythm.
Whoever hears this melody will join me.

(The struggle is over; gain and loss are assimilated. I sing the song of the village woodsman, and play the tunes of the children. Astride the Bull, I observe the clouds above. Onward I go, no matter who may wish to call me back.)



7. The Bull Transcended

Astride the Bull, I reach home.
I am serene. The Bull too can rest.
The dawn has come. In blissful repose,
Within my thatched dwelling I have abandoned
the whip and rope.

(All is one law, not two. We only make the Bull a temporary subject. It is as the relation of rabbit and trap, of fish and net. It is as gold and dross, or the moon emerging from a cloud. One path of clear light travels on throughout endless time.)



8. Both Bull & Self Transcended

Whip, rope, person, and bull- all merge in No-thing.
This heaven is so vast no message can stain it.
How may a snowflake exist in a raging fire?
Here are the footprints of the patriarchs.

(Mediocrity is gone. Mind is clear of limitation. I seek no state of enlightenment. Neither do i remain where no enlightenment exists. Since I linger in neither condition, eyes cannot see me. If hundreds of birds strew my path with flowers, such praise would be meaningless.)



9. Reaching the Source

Too many stops have been taken returning to
the root and the source.
Better to have been blind and deaf from the
Dwelling in one’s true abode, unconcerned
with that without-
The river flows tranquility on and the flowers
are red.

(From the beginning, truth is clear. Poised in silence, I observe the forms of integration and disintegration. One who is not attached to “form” need not be “reformed.” The was IS emerald. The mountain IS indigo, and I see that which IS creating and that which IS destroying.)

10.In the World

Barefooted and naked of breast, I mingle with
the people of the world.
My clothes are ragged and dust-laden, and
I am ever blissful.
I use no magic to extend my life;
Now, before me, the dead trees become alive.

(Inside my gate, a thousand sages do not know me. The beauty of my garden is invisible. Why should one search for the footprints of the patriarchs? I go to the market place with my wine bottle and return home with my staff. I visit the wineshop and the market, and everyone I look upon becomes enlightened.)


By Kakuan, transcribed by Nyogen Senzaki

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